I’ve always felt more comfortable as a girl. I think I got my need to dress as little girl from my mother. When I was little she used to make me dress in girls clothes. One day when I was 7 and had been naughty, she took me upstairs and made me undress. She laid out a full petticoat which despite its size seemed very light. These clothes had all been worn by my older sister Susan when she was a little girl, and as I was about to find out, would now fit me perfectly. What I didn’t realise was that my mother desperately missed having a little girl around the house, and was using my ‘punishment’ as an excuse to put me into dresses.
As she lifted the petticoat it billowed out. There were several layers of lace-edged net and the innermost layer was made of silk. I was at first been too stunned to say anything. ‘You must be joking, I’m not going to wear that!’ I exclaimed as my mother shook out the dress. It was a pretty yellow satin party dress with oodles of frills and lace. It had puff sleeves, was very short and fastened at the back with a broad satin sash. ‘You have no choice my lad,’ my mother said evenly. ‘Besides, you never know, you just might find that you actually like it,’ she said fondly. Suddenly curious to see just what my mother had in mind, I decided to go along with the game of dressing up for the moment without protest.
My mother then took out a pair of pale yellow satin panties which matched the dress. At the front of the waist was a tiny satin bow, while the rear was covered with layers of lace-trimmed ruffles. Smiling as I put my feet into them, she slid the panties all the way up my legs. She made sure that they were snugly tucked in at the front and fluffed up the ruffles at the back so that they stuck out over each other.
Then it was time to put on my petticoat. Holding it down low she said ‘Come along, in you get.’ I reluctantly stepped into it, and my mother quickly pulled it up over my hips. Then, standing behind me, she tightened the waist cord and tied it in a non slip double bow behind me. ‘Good’ she smiled, ‘Now for your feet.’ She sat me down on the bed, and after opening another draw, pulled on to my feet a pair of white ankle socks that she turned down neatly. Over my ankle socks she slid a pair of white leather sandals with buckles at the side onto my feet, and strapped them on firmly.
She told me to stand up, and while I put my head and arms into it, she placed the dress over my head before she pulled it down over me. One by one she fastened the small pearl buttons at the back of the dress, closing the bodice firmly around me, and then tied the wide sash into a large neat bow behind my back. She was right, with the give on the smocking it fitted me perfectly. I caught sight of himself in a full-length mirror. The dress had been short to start with, but the layers of petticoat raised the edge by several more inches. The slightest movement resulted in the petticoats swaying and rustling as the layers moved against each other. With my bobbed hair, I could easily have been taken for a girl. But wait a minute, I was a boy! Suddenly I panicked. ‘Oh no Mum, please, no!’ I cried in a confused mixture of emotions, and I ran from the room back to my bedroom.
I love to dress in pretty little satin and lace party dresses. should i go out like this in public?
Hey whatever makes you happy hon!
Reply:You have a dream come true! Who doesn%26#039;t love dresses and lace! Report It
Reply:anyone that isn%26#039;t some **** ing gay crossdresser Report It
Reply:Who honestly cares what other people thing? You go rock that dress !!! And if people laugh too bad for them because everyone is there own person who can do whatever they want to.
Reply:okayyyyyyyyy...................
Reply:It%26#039;s ok, I have called someone. They are on their way. I am frightened and have got some more beer. It reminds me of a really tame version of %26#039;The Wasp Factory%26#039;.
Reply:Jeez... I dunno, if you feel more comfortable like that, then go for it - whatever fries your chicken, so to speak. It depends where you live too - New York, London and other cosmopolitan cities have areas where people can dress however they want without causing a stir but if you live in some tiny Welsh village then you might get a bit of abuse. It%26#039;s all about judgement...
Reply:Fiction!!!
Reply:wow u must be really bored
Reply:Riiiiiiiiiiiight
Reply:I don%26#039;t think you should go out like that in public, but if it makes you feel more comfortable....
Reply:Perv! Perv with too much time on his hands!
Reply:................ok
Reply:Dad. shhhhhhh. We we%26#039;ren%26#039;t going to talk about this in public, were we ?
Reply:It%26#039;s like this. The body is a computer in two versions. The male and female. Then there are society rules and society regulations and acceptance; which dictates how the male and female should live their lives. This influences how a male presents himself and a female herself.
That coupled with influence (ie a mother putting her son in a dress to %26#039;punish%26#039; him) has a very deep effect. One of the reasons being is the person has a self-image, an ego that is shaped by the influences growing up and people that have affected them. So a part of you knows the average guy doesn%26#039;t wear a dress and it confuses the sexual program, it confuses identity etc...difficult to explain...it can be justified by the explaining to yourself it wasn%26#039;t your decision, so it has been allowed.
The body computer over its life time creates lots of programs that run within it. These programs affect your personality, how you speak, how you act, your perceptions of this world, others perceptions of you in this world etc. You have created a dress program, not through your own initial desires but because you were forced into creating it, you now know what it is like; there is escapism along with other factors.
This dress program can then get associated and confused with other programs so one executes the other. Ie women that are dominant makes you submissive because that is how you have decided it is.
In order to deal with the situation, ie you have to explain it, you had to decide you liked it. You can decide you were forced into it. Whilst there isn%26#039;t anything wrong with it, I myself think that you are training your computer to run the feminine programs more than the masculine ones.
Then you have had a life that has encouraged the feminine programs to run more than the masculine ones, to the point you could be persuaded even to change your sex.
It%26#039;s a tricky answer this one. You see to be totally free you have to be who you are. Do what you want to do as long as not hurting others. If you deny who you are and what programs you have created, then your computer goes haywire.
YOU have to decide who you want to be and how you want to be and work on those goals. Even if you still dress you could cut down etc. Never deny who you are (it doesn%26#039;t work and you start dressing again), but you do need a compromise to fit in with society. Or you can go out being totally who you want, but it would be difficult as not everyone can understand your need to be who you are or accept who you are. Don%26#039;t let yourself be given a label to live up to, decide for yourself who you want to be. IMHO, your mum has shaped your personality in a way that suited her, now work out how you want to shape it to suit you.
People tend to think within the rules dictated to them. It is people%26#039;s perceptions and what programs they have inherited that keep everyone all closed off to new experiences. Especially the program %26#039;I am worried what people think of me!%26quot;.
More people should have Jennifer above%26#039;s attitude.
Reply:Uhh...wha?
=S
Reply:Youve gotta be kidding .....right.?
What a cruel thing to do to you.
Im sorry but your mother needs her head examined.!!
This is one of the saddest things ive heard in a long time.
Reply:Now now Richard, what will Judy say if she knows you have told us all about your childhood.Mind you we always suspected she wore the trousers.
Reply:wait, are you a girl, or a guy!??! it depends, really it does, but if you%26#039;re a girl and you%26#039;re wearing really see thru clothing thats lacy, and stuff, you might not want to because it probabley wont do well for your overall look, but idk, its your choice, im just suggesting something
Reply:You may feel more satisfied as a girl due to wannting to please your mum as she wanted to have a girl around the house.
Or dop u see it as beeing errotic like sexualy satifiying as you may now see being humiliated or punished as a turn on.
talk to your mum and ask her to find out a counciler or find 1 yourself if ur olde enough you could be transexual or ;like i said this could have somthig to do with being turned on buy humiliation its not un common.
Reply:you need to see a councellor
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